I've missed writing in a blog, I've been away for a couple weeks now I think, due to a computer cord fraying issue. That's all it takes to separate me from my internet friends, one little disconnected wire. Somehow I survived without my normal morning routine of coffee and blogs. There was a lot of phone-staring, which is not quite the same.
I had a dumb week. Long story short, I am losing my college job (which has become my main source of income) in a couple weeks. It's one of those things that comes with the fatal combination of having a contract term end and having less experience at your own job than the other applicants do.
Still, it hurts my pride a little bit.
Try and imagine that your boss comes up to you on a Wednesday and tells you they are holding interviews for your job the following Monday. Then on the Monday you find out they are holding the interviews in a very NOT soundproof office right beside your desk, and you have to try and work the whole day while they cycle your possible replacements through, marching right past your desk.
You are the final interview of the day. When you go in and the interview begins your heart sinks. It is so specific. There are so many questions about how things work and why things are the way they are, and the entire ten months you've been working in that job you've been trying to figure that shit out on your own when you find the time, but are mainly just trying to keep things moving and honestly not caring so much about the hows or whys, just putting out all the little fires and worrying about whether or not you have the right books on time.
I've always been the job-quitter, never the laid-off person. I'm always moving on or moving away or moving up. Now I am left behind and have no idea what I'm going to do. Surprise unemployment does not feel good.
I have a couple weeks to show my supervisor what it is I do all day, and I've been working on spreadsheets of publishers and contacts and that kind of thing so my replacement doesn't have to walk into this thing as blindly as I did. Leave things better than they were when you go, right?
So that's been my week. I went out today and bought a new cord for my computer so I can digitally dust off my resume and get back out there. Ugh. God fucking damnit, you know? Not fun.
Anyway I've been drawing quite a lot as usual. Here are some things I made in the last couple weeks:
A while ago at Michaels I found a huge pack of cardstock rectangles for super cheap. They're postcard size and perfect for doing little drawings on and trying things out. It doesn't feel like such a big deal if you make something ugly because who cares, it's basically a piece of thin cardboard. It's not a precious journal page or anything.
With the help of some transfer paper I've been able to easily do patterns in the background and more elaborate designs than I could before. Here are some of the finished ones. I honestly didn't realize basically everything I've done is a skull or creepy in some way until just now.
Here's another skull I did recently. It's kind of a conjoined head skull I guess. I've since added more black to the background and it looks better. I'm fairly pleased with this one but if I did it again I would probably make all the flowers the same color and less tie-dye looking.
I seriously love the way this one turned out. It's so pretty and such a swear word at the same time! I will probably make prints of this one at some point.
After doing the FUCK OFF thing I enjoyed the way tiny roses looked, so I tried it as a border. Its ok. A little too wavy on the right side. I sort of like this one, I feel like the white background is too white though and the devil's mouth area needs some work, it looks a little too ... I don't know, jowly?
Anyway it's really not bad for my first attempt at drawing a devil.
Gulper eels are the stuff of nightmares. This idea, of the floral thingies coming out of cuts on the body came from a snake painting I saw somewhere online a long time ago. It's not really my idea. I did it differently than that artist, of course, and added a bunch of other things but yeah. I feel weird even taking full credit for this drawing.
Also, sidenote, grey copic markers are THE BEST.
This was done on a day I really had not much going on. I decided to draw the entire Simpsons family in one day. The weird brown on Homer and around Bart is actually a metallic gold Sharpie. It looks way better in real life than in my crap instagram photos. I started drawing the Maggie in the bath and lost interest halfway through, and just kind of rushed to color around her in blue. You can totally tell.
I really like that Marge and that Homer. And the Bart. And the Lisa is pretty good too, except the broccoli/radish area. I'm super not happy with the blanket greens and reds I did there, I should have added way more dimension.
These last three I feel just "meh" about for various reasons. The first one is a combination of very prolific tattoo images, plus a spinal column I feel like I pretty much nailed. I love how this looks here, but then I went ahead and put a bunch of ugly flowers behind it all and ruined it. The second one is a good idea, but I botched the execution. I made Hot Stuff into Krampus. I may try this again. And the third one, it's not that great but I'm rather happy about it anyway. We started watching the movie Annabelle, a scary doll movie, and I was like "I'm gonna draw Annabelle. 15 minutes later I had this. Sure she's a little cross-eyed and not perfect by any means but you know what? You can tell it's her and I just did it with no prep or anything.
How's your week?